Filling up your Cup FIRST!

I am learning that I must fill my cup first.  It may be coming from the feeling of strain and drain of my own cup being filled up last.  My new reality is that I must be full before I can properly help anyone else out. It is selfish to think that I am so special that I can give to others even with an empty or low cup. I am not special at all, just a mere mortal human.
This is me humanizing and normalizing my grandiose mindset that's I can give what I don't have. I must build, and to build I need energy. This goes along with my philosophy of the good selfish which states that "good selfish" is when your so called selfishness benefits others and not takes away from them long term. I am even learning to live by my own revelations. 

Learning to be good selfish is the hardest task for me. Something surely has to die inside for a new faculty to arise. It is now a life's task, because it'll take me to the next level of myself. What I have learned in the process of being so called selfless are my strengths and weaknesses but haven't surely took either to their limit. In order to become my best self I must test both to failure, strengths will be fun but testing my weaknesses to their limits will surely be humbling. HUMBLING BRINGS BALANCE IN A INNER WORLD OF CHAOS. IM DEALING WITH SELF FIRST!!

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